Dead Life

On This Rainy Eve..















Dead asleep i was,
With my eyes Shut so tight.
Behind those dArk doors,
I was trying to trace out,
The Footprints..
Hoping they would lead..
Me, Back again,
To those Happy Dreams Of my Past.

The tiny bits Of Chaos in the Nature..
Woke Me up,
Back To that realist Friend of Mine.
With Eyes Half empty
I was lying dead.
I heard the Roaring wind outside,
I heard the screeching trees outside,
They were all so chaotic.
What for?

They were readying for a Big celebration.
So Very Much Joyous of the return.
For the Big Drops From the Heaven,
Were Arriving.

I knew it !!
It was like another Rainy evening,
Usually a Feast,
For That Shrunken Soul of Mine,
So often dipped in Turmoils.
A Feast..
That my Dry tears await,
Wait, Long enough to Chomp upon !

But I saw...
I Had No Life in Me !
Life Enough to push Me to My pLayground
Where I usually Like Gulping Down,
Those Happy tears from the Heavens.

I Lied there
Like a Dead.
Listening to Those Big Drops,
Growling with Hunger.
Desperate To Feast upon,
The Earth So Dead Dry.
HAppily Satiating the Lifeless life Outside,
Thumping Hard,
Against the Earth So Short Of Tears
And I lied there..
Like A DEAd,
With Not A Life beneath my Soul.

May be I HAd the Lazy Fish Again,
Yawning Inside me,
Amidst the Ocean Of energy.
And I lied there
Like A dead.
As the sound Of the DAncing Drops,
Defeaned My Senses
I heArd a Sound
So Big, loud And Clear..
Of A tear
That Hit the ground
Or was tHAt..
Another Drop of Blood,
That was oozing out,
Out Of my heart, So badly wounded .

While HAppy Tears were breathing life,
Life into The dead outside.
I am Left,
Well ignored.
For i Had in Me..
A storm Far More Angry and Strong And chaotic.
Churning My half eaten emotions,
And slicing My tender lil Heart to Pieces.

Thoughts Of a Gentle Youth,
Were Gripping Hard to mY Heart.
Suckling all the Joy and Peace in ME,
And Leaving me..
All So Dead and Dry.

Rainha No More Had her Rain
On this another Rainy Evening
She was,
She was..
left So isolated and Undone.
And in Vain.
Yearning A lil More Of dEAth,
From Each Moment that Passed By.

Her once So called Arms Wide open,
With Which she Hugged those HAppy Tears from the Heaven,
Were all in ashes, by now.
For Within the Very SAme
She held, Once,
Her One-love.
Closest to her Bosom.
Nourishing EAch DAy,
It, With Love so Gentle And Genuine.

One dAy,
THe Love Decided to Move Away.
And so did the Arms.
To burn themselves Down.

And I lied there.
Half dead,
With Not a Life in me.

The Rainy evening Passed away
Without Me..
The HAppy tears BAde Adieu,
With No HAppy in ME.

And I lied there,
Half Dead..
With Not a Life in Me !

And I saw me searching in the dark,
Wandering for The HApPy-Me.
Trying to Trace away.
The footprints..
Of those Happy Dreams Ov My Past !!

And So I lied there,
Dead Still.
With No Life In me..
No Life iN Me.